chongkitunababy

tamagochi baby

"...automatic lover you're my techno lust
addicted to your love like magic dust
ecstatic little plastic drives me off the wall
push the right buttons remote control
wa-wa-wa wakari masen
i-i-i i'm in love again..."

in lab nanaman ba ako o nag succeed nanaman akong paniwalain ang sarili ko na in lab ako. leche. masahol pa ako sa aso ni pavlov.

sabi ni lualhati: minsan nangyayari na umiibig ka lang sa ideya ng pag-ibig at hindi sa isang tao, na katuparan daw un ng isang batang pangarap. or something to that effect. in short, dahil wala si manuel jamora at wala akong napagbuntungan ng aking oedipal complex e kaya ganto ako.haha! ayos at na divert nanaman sa iba ang short-comings ng aking decision making skills sa lablayp.

bakit ba parati na lang kasing sablay ang mga lalaking nakikilala ko (o ako siguro ang sablay pumili?)

anyway, since baka idelete nanaman nya ako sa friends list nya kung gagawa ako ng anything na makakapa-imply na nagdadate kami ilalabas ko na lang lahat ng angst ko dito,and since these past few days na e-LSS ako sa kantang ito might as well pati ang blog ko puputaktihin ko na ng pesteng lyrics ng pesteng kanta na to.pesteng mga lalaking yan. kung ayaw ng commitment DI WAG! iisipin ko na lang may tamagochi ulet ako.

Insensitive

How do you cool your lips,
after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat,
after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes,
from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice,
you'd know anywhere?
Oh, I really should have known by the time you drove me home,
by the vagueness in your eyes, casual good-byes,
by the chill in your embrace, the expression on your face
that told me you might have
some advice to give, on how to be
insensitive
How do you numb your skin,
after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood,
after the body rush?
How do you free your soul,
after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart,
its a crime to fall in love again?
Oh, you probably won't remember me,
its probably ancient history.
I'm one of the chosen few
who went ahead and fell for you.
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch,
I fell too fast, I feel too much.
I thought that you might have
some advice to give, on how to be
insensitive.

ditto

bagong boylet bagong buhay? nyahaha. kahapon habang kasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko sa aming maliit naming 'lonely hearts club' na gathering sa sm, nakatabi namin ang eaves' dropper na ito, habang dinidictate ko ang number ko kay anika, minememorize na pala nya, at nag text agad sa akin that night. NGAYON, under normal circumstances hindi ko to papatusin, (well, at least hindi sa ngayon) me theory nga ako kung bakit i went (for the umft-time) agaist my instincts:

a.) nagkukulang na talaga ako sa pansin these past few days

b.) bored ako

c.) gusto ko lang talagang malibre sa bilyar (or malibre in general, haha),

at sabagay e balentayms naman...at i guess iba talaga ang kakayahan ng mass media to influence my puny testosterone infested mind.pero this time nga lang i really am trying to steer away from histrionic people, sobrang nagkalat sila ngayon parang epidemic...

ewan ko ba pero tingin ko ito talaga ang panahon namamagnify ang mga hidden insecurities ng mga tao(at siguro pati na rin ang mga psychological/mood/personality/whathaveyou disorders) idagdag mo pa ung mga unresolved oedipal complex, ung pa-masokista/sadist effect, ung mga pa-passive agressive and drama, at siguro pati na rin ung mga hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa nareresolbahan ang kanilang penis envy at fear of castration. tulad na lang nung kamakailan, nagtxt sa akin ang kaibigan ko, sabi nya na malungkot sya kasi loveless sya sa love month, i replied: "ok lang yan tol, anyway, abot tanaw na ang march...haha".

ha! ako rin pala itong kapareho nya ng mindset ^_^ pathetic ba? ewan. happy naman ako eh.^_^. may kalaro na ako ng bilyar at kabiritan sa karaoke..wahehe...sana lang makabalik na sya agad galing baguio...

 

oops i did it again...

question: pag nag sabi ka ng 'i love you' sa isang tao at nag 'i love you too' din sya does it mean na kayo na?

or

is it just a result of boredom and you just can't stand dealing with dead air? wala lang masabi ganun.

anyway, i am sure na at the least i cared for him pero love? gusto kung bawiin each and every word, 'ne hindi ko nga magawa palitan ang status ko sa friendster...kahit 'it's complicated man lang' haha.i am sure i am goin to hell when i die. i'm sorry baby...